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By Zuan Arifin

Why is it hard, for us to face our history when it involves man?
Ex- Boyfriend.

We hide, we try to run away but the matter of fact it is just him. Things did not work out for a reason, yet there we are, under a big trench coat, hoping that he misses you.

Alternatively, is it, we are afraid that he does not miss us?

Or

Does the old feeling come back?

Or

We are afraid that he does not say a thing, and things run into our head.
“Are we that bad of a lover?”

Are we afraid of our EX’s or are we afraid of the fact?

Charming and I been contacting back after we spilt. I will not lie, my heart was happy that we did. The old feeling came rushing towards me. My mind just wanted to be in his arms. However, the past also made me said no.

Though he tried to show me that he has change, I was not that convince. Still, my heart say, ask him to take you back.

The urge was great. I could just utter the word “Take me. I still love you”
Nevertheless, thank god, my senses came to me.
If it were meant to be. Yeah. It would.

When does the feeling wanting to go back in your past become wanting in the present?

I hate it. The times we chat. We sms. I blurred!

I was denied.

Broke my heart.

However, no tears.

He may not say yes, but he said, he still loves me.

Whatever wrong may come towards the relationship. I have made some thing right.
The fact that I wanted to know, whether he still love me.

Therefore, I move on. Knowing that I am not that bad of a lover.