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By Zuan Arifin

Why is it hard, for us to face our history when it involves man?
Ex- Boyfriend.

We hide, we try to run away but the matter of fact it is just him. Things did not work out for a reason, yet there we are, under a big trench coat, hoping that he misses you.

Alternatively, is it, we are afraid that he does not miss us?

Or

Does the old feeling come back?

Or

We are afraid that he does not say a thing, and things run into our head.
“Are we that bad of a lover?”

Are we afraid of our EX’s or are we afraid of the fact?

Charming and I been contacting back after we spilt. I will not lie, my heart was happy that we did. The old feeling came rushing towards me. My mind just wanted to be in his arms. However, the past also made me said no.

Though he tried to show me that he has change, I was not that convince. Still, my heart say, ask him to take you back.

The urge was great. I could just utter the word “Take me. I still love you”
Nevertheless, thank god, my senses came to me.
If it were meant to be. Yeah. It would.

When does the feeling wanting to go back in your past become wanting in the present?

I hate it. The times we chat. We sms. I blurred!

I was denied.

Broke my heart.

However, no tears.

He may not say yes, but he said, he still loves me.

Whatever wrong may come towards the relationship. I have made some thing right.
The fact that I wanted to know, whether he still love me.

Therefore, I move on. Knowing that I am not that bad of a lover.

New Arrival
By Zuan Arifin

When ever we walk passing by a store and the month just kicks off its day. Our eyes can’t help it-self but noticing that one sign board on the window. “New arrival”. The same feeling we have when we bought that “Prada” handbag last month when it was in style.

In a relationship, does new arrival brings any meaning towards the man.
Do they also go gauging into new single ladies, though they are in a relationship with their partners?

Have we ladies become an item which only valid on season or are we just become last month ‘Prada’ ?

What is in style when it comes to love? Why do we go crazy over something new, when the old ones have gone with us trough good times and bad times?

In a relationship, not only people can be the reason “new arrival” seems the right thing to purchase, but dreams as well. Dreams can be the reason why we can be old stuff because the dream has been the priority in his life.

Nevertheless, as I said, what is the in style when it comes to love? Can we actually re-invent ourselves to be better than the new arrival? how?

Changing our hair, buy a new shoe or perhaps purchase that sexy dress that we never have the courage to wear and embrace the new us. Perhaps that is the way to attract them in purchasing us, the ‘newly improve prada’ but at the same time keeping the essence of us in as that will be the most valuable thing.

But then again, does it really worth it if being a new arrival, when being the old one just feels more right. We can never please anyone, and if being old means you will lose out towards the new arrival, perhaps then you will appeal yourself in the new arrival of the man.

Always think on the positive side.